KNOW WAY, KNOW HOW.

fresh start.

2010-10-02T14:12:00.000-07:00

because i simply miss blogging, i'm ready to start up again...new beginning new blog. Following the rest of the homies to tumblr.

NEW BLOG HERE

For the love...

2010-10-02T08:49:00.001-07:00

Why hello there long lost friend! Oh how I've missed you...

Can't wait to start up again when I have a moment.

Stay tuned...

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2010-04-27T16:23:00.000-07:00

MY GODSON BAILROK and the rest of the RSC crew @ the 1st annual ROK THIS WAY jam in Las Vegas on 4/24/10

Valentine's Day.

2010-02-16T08:53:00.000-08:00

Word on the streets is that this movie got bad reviews. But I thought it was so cute, witty, sweet…even heart breaking at times. I definitely recommend this movie to everyone. It’s a perfect date night flick if you can get your boyfriend/fiancé/husband to take you to it. I could even see it being a movie you go with all the girls to. It was just so real, everyone can relate! Not to mention the awesome A-list cast. How can you resist?? It’s all of our favorite romantic comedy actors and actresses all in 1 movie! (Minus a few) But go, go , go see it!!

5 Random Things.

2010-02-15T14:51:00.000-08:00

Tagged by Mrs.Boss Bizness herself.

1. If I really like an article of clothing, I will buy it in every color. (A very, very, very bad habit I am trying to break!)

2. My Favorite color is purple. I get approached a lot by very observant strangers…purple cell case, purple shirt, purple nails “your favorite color is purple”, yes indeedy! There is something so vibrant, secretive, yet playful about purple. It has so many different shades…it has always been and will continue to be my favorite color.

3. When I pay for something in cash and get money back I make sure all the bills are facing the same way. (why do people think this is totally weird?) I get weird stares by cashiers.

4. My Blackberry has become an extension of my body.

5. MAMI status and proud of it!

Tag, ur it! 5 random things about you. Ready, and go!

This one's dedicated to...

2010-02-08T09:12:00.000-08:00

In Honor of LOVE DAY Feb 14, I thought the lyrics from this track were appropriate. So 10 yrs, 4 kids, 2 houses & cars later I still get butterflies around this guy…dedicated to the LOMF BJ.Isla.

1,2,3,4-Plain White T's

1-2-1-2-3-4

Give me more loving than I’ve ever had

Make me feel better when I’m feeling sad

Tell me I’m special even though I know I’m not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Barely getting mad

I’m so glad I found you

I love being around you

You make it easy

Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing

To DoThree words

For you(I love you) I love you

There’s only one way to say

Those three words

That’s what I’ll do(I love you) I love you

Give me more loving from the very start

Piece me back together when I fall apart

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

You’re the best that I’ve had

And I’m so glad I found youI love being around you

You make it easyIt’s easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4

There’s only one thing

To DoThree wordsFor you(I love you) I love you

There’s only one way to say

Those three words

That’s what I’ll do(I love you) I love you(I love you) I love you

You make it easy It’s easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4

There’s only one thing

To DoThree wordsFor you(I love you) I love you

There’s only one way to say

Those three words That’s what I’ll do(I love you) I love you(I love you) I love you

1-2-3-4

I love you(I love you) I love you

When things just get better with time, you just KNOW. He’s the one that you think of when you hear a love song, he’s the one you want to watch every romantic movie with, he’s the one you wouldn’t want to change for anything.

Dear John.

2010-02-08T08:23:00.001-08:00

I am a total sucker for romantic films…This one definitely got off to the right start, but as it went on, it totally fell off the LOVE TRAIN TRACK. Channing Tatum was extremely HOT as usual, but he cried a lot in this movie. After you see it, you’ll understand why. But I definitely think you should hold off to seeing it in the theatre, because it wasn’t really worth the $10.25 I paid. Get the bootleg or wait for it on DVD. I really love Amanda Seyfried…I think she’s really beautiful. When I was watching Mean Girls last night, it totally slipped my mind that it was her in that movie! I like her as the girl next door, not too much make-up. She really is drop-dead gorgeous. The ending was a total disappointment. Seriously…all you could hear was “that’s it?” coming from every persons mouth.

Saints don't lose on Sundays!!

2010-02-08T07:50:00.000-08:00

It’s the SUPER SAINTS!! Super BOWL CHAMPIONS!!

I am a sucker for underdogs, but really…I was rooting for the Saints after my Niners didn’t make it to the playoffs. The New Orleans Saints were going for more than just a ring; they were looking to bring a Championship back for the people of New Orleans. Done deal right there people…sorry Colts fans maybe next year. CONGRATS to the MIGHTY SAINTS on the victory!!

Utah Recap.

2010-02-08T07:42:00.000-08:00

So…UTAH was a blast! I don’t think I’ve ever been so exhausted from a trip before. Probably because we decided to make it a cousin trip, meaning…our parents didn’t go, so we had the kids all to ourselves, nobody to hand them off to when you needed a break. So it was already decided that next year we are taking them with us! I am having major withdrawals from my family. We are all super close and sometimes I wish we all lived down the street from each other again, instead of spread across the country like we are now.

I would have to say that with all the pressure from my cousins (with them threatening to push me down the extremely high bunny slope); I really improved in my snowboarding. Going with the new motto, “It’s now or never!” Because I thought it was much better for me to determine when I would be going down instead of someone pushing me. So I just kept going for it, it’s a given you are going to fall…with anything in life, you fall to get up and learn from your mistakes. I can’t wait for the next boarding trip!

Here are some of my favorite pictures from the trip…

Until next year...GUZMANS!!

Guzman Family Vacation.

2010-01-28T08:06:00.001-08:00

So we are about to depart on our 1st annual “GUZMAN CUZ-O CABIN TRIP”. I’m too excited to be concentrating on work, so I figured I would blog instead. All my cousins from Texas & Chicago are flying in for this trip then we are off to Utah in the morning! :)

Since some of us started popping out kids, our summer cousin trips have ceased. Personally, I am too broke to travel and I feel guilty traveling without my kids. I know, you people may think I’m crazy, but when I am away from my kids for just a few hours I can’t help but stare at their pictures on my blackberry. I guess you could say I will trade a night home with my kids over any club. That’s just me…everyone is different.

Yay for family trips, this is much needed and long overdue!

Stay tuned for pictures and stories.

Amazing!

2010-01-12T16:24:00.000-08:00

From my Family to Yours...

2009-12-18T03:36:00.000-08:00

I can't believe Christmas 2009 is 7 days away...This year has went by too fast! This time last year I was pregnant with my 3rd child, so you know what that means...Brendan is turning 1!! I think I spent most of tonight just watching my kids sleep. They grow too fast, so i take a billion pictures and try and capture as much of them in their innocence as humanly possible. *sigh*

Here's a little taste of our Christmas Card this year:

What better way to spread holiday cheer than be super goofy??

Wishing you all...

a very MERRY HOLIDAY & a ROCKIN' NEW YEAR!!

"LOVE GAME"

2009-12-04T08:29:00.000-08:00

ME being the LEO and HIM being the GEMINI

A Gemini individual will find much in common with a person born under the Leo zodiac sign. Both of them love to have fun, have an adventurous nature and enjoy life. They will find each other quite fascinating and love each other's company. The Lion is on the same intellectual level as the Gemini and this will make their conversions interesting as well as soul-satisfying. However, the varied interests of the latter may make a Leo jealous, as he wants to hold the primary importance in a relationship.

Leo is much more capable of forming long-lasting bonds than Gemini and tends to stick to the people and the things he likes. This may clash with the Gemini trait of being on the move, all the time. The sharp tongue of the latter may hurt the fragile ego of the Lion and this may bring some compatibility problems in this love match. However, a Leo forgives easily and this will act as a major relief. Geminis make Leos relax and they, in turn, teach the Twins generosity and warmth. If they learn to give each other freedom, this relationship can be a very strong one.

Gemini Man and Leo Woman

Except for a few grey areas, the love match of a Gemini man and Leo woman shows great degree of compatibility. It has all the signs of developing into a lasting bond. Both the individuals love to be the center of attraction and thrive on parties and socializing. They will never fall short of meaningful conversation and there will be no chances of boredom creeping into this relationship. However, he will have to control his flirtatious nature and she will have to learn to let him have his freedom, without being suspicious.

Gemini Woman and Leo Man

A Gemini woman and a Leo man have extremely good chances of getting on well with each other. Both are social individuals, who love meeting new people and enjoy going to the parties. She will love his grandiosity, his funny sense of humor and his generous nature. He will adore her for her vivacity, adventurous nature and passion for life. There will be no dearth of romance and passion in this relationship. One thing they will have to remember will be to complement each other and never ever stand on the opposite side of the road, whatever is the temptation.

They hit this one right on the nose!!

Memory Lane

2009-11-24T15:03:00.001-08:00

Don’t you just love how you can look at a picture and remember the exact place it was taken? Or when you hear a song and all of a sudden it takes you back 5 or 10 years. It’s weird how certain things can trigger your mind to just go back into time, feeling that exact emotion as if you are living that moment over again. Every few years I dig into the archives of my computer or the boxes and boxes of pictures and letters at my parents house and I’m just thrown back. Where has the time gone?? When I was younger I was in such a rush to grow-up, but now I just wish time would slow down. I think it’s good to go back and take that journey of life through those pictures and songs. To remember how you were and to realize who you have become. I find it quite fascinating!

Skype me.

2009-10-14T21:21:00.000-07:00

the shirt says "TEAM EDWARD"

and since i can't wear sunglasses in real life my cartoon can!

oh, and let's not forget the infamous CUP.

Rockin' with the best!

2009-10-10T20:36:00.000-07:00

So proud of my godson Bailey aka "BAILROK" for being inducted into the legendary ROCK¤STEADY¤CREW today at the Mighty 4 event!! So proud of you baileyboy! He's not only the newest member, but the YOUNGEST ever!

the next big thing.

2009-10-08T21:36:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION: BAY AREA HEADS

Support my godson "BAILROK" this weekend at the

***MIGHTY 4 11 year anniversary***
OAKLAND,CA on SATURDAY 10/10/2009

(prepare to be amazed)

inspiration.

2009-10-07T23:43:00.000-07:00

After 3 kids, you kind of just wish everything will go back to normal. (emphasizing on your body)! Unfortunately, you are never the same exact person you were before you had the baby after you had it. Make sense?! Your whole purpose of life changes...you no longer put "you" first. I know people always say, you still have to make time for you. And as easy as that sounds...it's not that easy...Because I would rather put their needs before my own.

Every year right before summer, i always dread it because summer=bathing suit. Which leads to bathing suit ready body...i am determined to be comfortable in a 2 piece next year...i am going to do it! No more babies for me... :(

my inspiration for after babie(s) body:

Brooke Burke

I don't think I've seen a cuter pregnant person than Brooke Burke. I've always thought she was just so freakin' hot since back in the day...Now, I have so much respect for her as a mother. I mean come on, i love her so much my daughters middle name is Brooke! I love happy endings...this is a fairy tale still going on...not even an ending yet, but you get the point.

Kelly Ripa

I've always loved Kelly Ripa because she just seems so intelligent, beautiful and funny! I love her sense of style because it's so effortless. The fact that she's petite with no boobs is in inspiring too...Because BIGGER ISN'T ALWAYS BETTER! Love yourself the way you are...her confidence exudes her, it breaks out as a bright light all over her. You can just tell it's TRUE HAPPINESS.

Living proof, you really can have it all...

Dream.

2009-09-27T23:05:00.000-07:00

"Excellence can be obtained if you:

...care more than others think is wise;

...risk more than others think is safe;

...dream more than others think is practical;

...expect more than others think is possible."

Vote or DIE.

2009-09-24T06:22:00.000-07:00

We have entered ALY & Brendan in the Gap Casting Call. ;) You can vote once a day thru Nov 17th...so please do so...we really appreciate the support.

Please forward to Family & Friends.

Thank you!

Vote for me so I can be the Fan Favorite:

http://family.go.com/gapcastingcall/entries/bjisla/

EYE scream, U scream...

2009-09-23T22:10:00.000-07:00

We all scream for GLEE!!

Dear God,

Thank you for GLEE, its the little things that make me happy... :) Wednesday nights will never EVER EVER be the same...

MTV.

2009-09-13T23:32:00.000-07:00

Watching the VMA's tonight these were the highlights and low lights:

-MJ tribute was awesome, but damn, they should have murdered that shit. So many errors stuck out to me, but RIP to the KING!
-Kanye is a "DOUCHEBAG" (the end)
-i heart Taylor Swift
-pink blows me away every time! Her rugged edgey voice kills it. You definitely feel the emotion in her songs. My favorite cd was her 1st one, but I still love her now.

-The EXTENDED/EXCLUSIVE NEW MOON was packed with so much HOTNESS people, I can't wait for it to come out!!

-To Beyonce, much respect for your speech during the Video of the year acceptance. I'm sure Taylor Swift appreciated that.
-Jay-Z & A-keys closer (super FIRE, would it be anything else?)
-Lil' Mama jumping on at the end though, was NOT HOT. what was she thinking?

ENTERTAIN YOU.

2009-09-10T21:38:00.000-07:00

It's Isaiah's 1st fundraiser to kick of 2009-2010 school year (2nd grade already), ENTERTAINMENT BOOKS.

PLEASE STOP BY THIS WEBSITE TO VIEW THE PRODUCT:

http://www.entertainment.com/discount/fundraisingLookup.shtml

You really get your $$$ back when you are done with it.

Don't forget to enter his seller # so he gets credit. :) 406-501

THANK YOU ALL FOR CARING ABOUT OUR SCHOOLS...

Night Terrors.

2009-09-01T22:16:00.000-07:00

So ever since IJ was a toddler we have been plagued with broken sleep due to his screams of death in the middle of the night. At first I thought it was nightmares, but its more than just that. I don't know why it took me so long to do my research but this article pretty much sums it up:

What's the Issue?

Night wakings are frustrating for parents. We all know what it is like when your infant wakes up in the dead of night for a feed and then won't resettle … at 3:00 AM, when you are at your lowest level of functioning as a parent. But now, your toddler should be a reasonable sleeper, and these night wakings take on a new flavor: scary, tiresome, and just plain yucky.

Consider the Numbers

Between one and six percent of all children have night terrors (also called sleep terrors), according to Rudolph's Fundamentals of Pediatrics—one of the "big three" doctors' textbooks. But one recent study in the journal Pediatrics (May 2007) showed that up to 40 percent of all children have at least one night terror by their sixth birthday. This seems a more accurate number from what I see in pediatric practice. Additionally, statistics say that one third of children who have night terrors will begin experiencing them in the second year of life.

Also interesting about night terrors? They're more common in boys, and children who have night terrors often have other family members who have them as well.

What Parents Can Do

Understanding night terrors may make them seem a bit less freaky, and they can be most easily explained as being caught in between wakefulness and sleep. Think of it this way: The brain disconnects from the body during sleep. That is why—thankfully!—we don't all get out of bed and act out our dreams.

Parasomnias (medical talk for sleep disorders such as night terrors) are disturbances in which there is an incomplete disconnect, so to speak. Your child may be partially awake and able to generate some motor movement, but she is mostly asleep and thus oblivious to her surroundings. Children who experience night terrors don't remember what has happened the next day—just like kids (or adults) who talk or walk in their sleep

Night terrors can come in many varieties. The classic night terror involves sitting up in the crib, eyes wide open and screaming like there is a lion loose in the room (because that is what she might be dreaming). Kids are generally inconsolable and may even get a bit more agitated as you try to comfort them. They may hallucinate, talk gibberish, or lash out at you physically.

Night terrors can also involve talking (for those more verbal toddlers), saying nothing, or even laughing. I had one family ready to call the family chaplain for an exorcism after finding their child sitting up in bed at 10:30 PM looking at the wall and giggling with a deep voice. Yikes! (No wonder some say they are called night "terrors"—because they terrify parents.)Your child's doctor will likely tell you that night terrors are normal and then explain the physiology behind them. (This is a fairly common late-night discussion with a worried parent over the phone.)

What patterns do night terrors follow?

• They typically occur one to two hours into the night's sleep, or certainly in the first third of your child's night's sleep.

• The terror generally lasts less than 20 minutes and concludes with the child lying down and going into a deeper stage of sleep.

• Night terrors often occur in bunches. We tend to see more of them when kids are off schedule and their routines are disrupted—so, during holidays (when bedtimes are less rigid), just after a move to a new home, during times of illness, or even following Daylight Saving Time changes can come times of increased terrors.

How can parents handle night terrors?

The usual advice for parents of kids with recurrent night terrors is to check on your child to make sure everything is OK and to let it run its course—not always an easy task when your child seems so miserable. If you intervene, which is a parent's natural instinct, it usually takes longer to resolve and involves more agitation.

When kids are having frequent and predictable night terrors, doctors will sometimes advise waking kids 15 minutes before a night terror will likely occur. So if Will is having nightly terrors at 10:30, you might awaken him at 10:00 or 10:15 briefly and let him fall back asleep. This disrupts the sleep cycle just enough to avert the predictable sleep disturbance. Most children outgrow their night terrors before they turn 12, though a few adults still have them on occasion.

(I will definitely be putting some of these tactics to use. Hope this helps for anyone in a similar situation. F.Y.I.)

2nd grade

2009-08-24T10:50:00.000-07:00

So another school year has officially begun. :( I don't think it ever gets any easier, in fact, it gets harder. The older they get the sadder I get, waterworks are more than just puddles and rivers they're lakes and oceans. As much as I'm glad to see him become independent, I'm a mom, I want him to need me and want me to do things for him and with him. Now a days he acts like he knows everything and can do it all on his own...he really does know a lot, but damn, that's still my baby!!

bills, bills, bills

2009-08-20T13:35:00.000-07:00

I feel like I am drowning in bills…can you pay my bills?

The direct deposit hasn’t even hit my bank account yet and the money from this paycheck is already gone. I’m really tired of working 45 hours a week to be broke. This grown-up stuff is hard, I’m hoping I can figure it out soon, because as much as I feel like I’m taking care of business. I don’t want to just be able to survive off my money, I want to be able to enjoy it. This is where some kind of budgeting would come into play, but I am not very good at that kind of thing. I will always find a reason to need to buy a new outfit or that thing I just had to have right then and there. I guess it isn’t very good that the partner and I are the same when it comes to that, because that means we are NO good at saving…He’s probably better at it than me, but we are very compulsive buyers, when we get something in our head that we want, we have to get it.

Could it be that we are both the babies of our families? I think so…always used to getting what we want.

Why can’t money just grow on trees?

Cruel Summer.

2009-08-20T12:40:00.000-07:00

I had fun this summer, but I am a little disappointed I wasn’t able to go on any BIG VACATION GETAWAYS like we originally had planned at the beginning of it. Where did the summer go?? I guess it’s flashing before my eyes like the rest of my life.

So Isaiah asked me to start an e-mail account for him, my 7 yr old was chatting with me on google talk today. *tear* He starts 2nd grade on Monday too…

when it rains it pours I guess.

EFF u MONDAYS.

2009-08-17T15:47:00.001-07:00

I literally am NOT a fan of MONDAYS. Why can’t we all just have 3 day weekends, I seriously have the hardest time waking up on Monday mornings because I’m always in shock as to how fast my weekend went by. I swear we would all be a lot happier if we had 3 day weekends every week, because there is nothing like remembering, “wait I have another day off”. It just comes as a shock to you every time. I was able to do a lot of errands/chores as well as get some well needed rest back when I had to work only 4 days a week. I miss you 4 10’s…I think I want you back. Well actually, I want you back!!

…So exhausted without you.

C.TATUM.

2009-08-12T19:39:00.000-07:00

The highlight of my day...:) Too bad I'm not the lucky girl who got the lapdance! jk

It's a small world after all.

2009-08-12T13:32:00.000-07:00

When you’re young the world seems so big, you go to your 1st day of pre-school and nobody knows who you are. So you try your best to make some friends. By the end of High School the world just seems to be a little smaller, especially if you’ve lived in the same city your whole life. Now that we’re adults and you meet friends through friends and family, the world seems to be even SMALLER. Now you’re at the point where every group is interacting with a person from another group and every club is just a bunch of people you used to hate in high school or have some kind of funk with at some point in your life. So can it be that our adolescent years were just really growing pains? Where you would hate on a girl just because your BFF didn’t like her…or put people on blast because back then, you really had nothing to lose.

Now that we’re older it’s all about responsibility, kids, love and LOVING LIFE. I guess we all learned to just not care about the petty things.

CHEERS TO GROWING PAINS. We’re a lot smarter now…:)

workhouse blues.

2009-08-11T16:34:00.001-07:00

Well while most people work 8 hr shifts, I’m stuck working 9. I don’t know what’s worse FOUR 10 hr days or FIVE 9 hr days. Lately, this job has just been majorly boring, like I am wasting my time being here scrounging for things to do. Work shouldn’t be like this, they should be able to keep you occupied the entire duration of the 9 hours they want you to be here. Because lord knows I am the type of worker that would rather have too much to do rather than not enough to do, because that’s what determines whether your day will fly by or go in slow motion.

Like today, I was looking up at the clock only to find 2 minutes have passed when it felt like hours. So if you got time to kill hit me at the “workhouse”, I’ll find something to occupy time if they can’t.

…:)

T-minus 27 minutes!

You learn.

2009-08-09T20:00:00.000-07:00

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean security
and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises

you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open, with
the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight

after a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers
and you learn you really can endure
that you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn and you learn
with every good-bye you learn.

cause I've got Love for me.

2009-08-08T17:08:00.000-07:00

"You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self... Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose." - Jo Courdet

break-up

2009-08-06T22:27:00.000-07:00

This is my jam right now...the song just got that something!

"lovin' you lovin' you lovin' you...when i'm, when i'm lovin'you lovin' you, why would you wanna break up? Do anything for you why would you wanna break up?"

Now imagine me just rippin' that shit in the car! yee!

Leo's stand up!

2009-08-05T23:43:00.000-07:00

Since our season is in full swing I thought it would be nice to post up our 2009 horoscope, I found it to be quite interesting. HAPPY BORN DAY to my fellow LEOS!

In 2009, you find yourself connecting with people effortlessly as your warm-hearted actions are acknowledged and radiated back to you in a way you've never experienced before. The confident joy and happiness you freely give to others gives you the innate ability to be productive. For you, kind actions are the way to transformation and success.

This is a perfect time for proud Leo, because you have the desire, drive and power to help society. You realize there?s work to do, and you'll give a helping hand wherever you can. You are ready to align yourself with a higher level of awareness, and exhibit a regenerative attitude is about reaping the harvest by submitting to the larger purpose. What you are able to give to others directly reflects the transformation happening within you.

Your heart is in the right place, and you are likely to accomplish all that you set out to do this year. You're developing excellent skills in your own personal transformation process, and you are ready to make the conscious decision to be the best you can be. You feel secure, and the beauty of who you are shines through easily and effortlessly.

This is Me.

2009-08-05T23:10:00.000-07:00

Free as the wind that blows through the trees,
Active as the buzzing of the energetic bees,
Wild as the flowers that grow in the field,
But as calm as the deep blue sea

My smile is extra bright,
And the love I give is just right,
I'm so happy about my life,
That my soul just shines,
Even when life begins to taste like a sour lime,

I'm not your average young lady,
Jewels, diamonds, and pearls are things I don't need,
To love, respect and honor is my creed,
So I'll always keep it real,

I am what I am
Young, Bold and Be-you-ti-full,
I do the best I can,
I will never change because I know me just being, is enough,
I can only be me and that's all I will ever strive to be

(Such a silly willy. Wow, 4th blog of the night, I think its time for bed! Sweet dreams!)

Lead by EXAMPLE.

2009-08-05T21:32:00.001-07:00

Some people really need to lead with their actions and not just their words.

I see this all the time, the "mom" at the club that gets so drunk she doesn't realize all the sick fucks groping on her ass, then passes out in a room full of strangers just to have her ass BBM'ed to their friends with in seconds or twitpic'ed on twitter. SHAME ON YOU. Yes, mommy's need a break too, I am a firm believer in that, but I really can't stand people that can't hold their own, ESPECIALLY in public. If you're at your homies house and feel like being a hot mess, go for it!

Lord knows I have...

Cause yup, I'm the girl that will probably drink too much, throw up in the bathroom, drink a glass of water and take another shot of henn. CHEERS to the mutha fuckin' GOOD LIFE.

I'm just saying...

or am i wrong?? maybe it's just me...

but you aren't that single kid in college anymore, with nothing to worry about. You have kids depending on you and if you get kidnapped, raped and murdered while you decide to play "freak in the streets" that would just be tragic. At least have a cool group of friends around you that are gonna watch your back if you decide to get all sloppy. It still ain't a good look though ladies, it's true what they say...

..."you can't make a hoe a housewife." or can you??

super touchy subject, where all my CLASSY BITCHES at?!

"Back in the Day"

2009-08-05T21:13:00.000-07:00

I find myself singing this more and more as I get older. *sigh*

conspire to INSPIRE.

2009-08-05T21:00:00.000-07:00

I get so inspired reading blogs, my goodness, sometimes I feel like I'm not putting in my share of good reads. But thank you to the people that keep me coming back for more. There's nothing like it when you are stuck at the Dr's office, on your break at work or killing some time before bed while you have some silence after the kids have fallen asleep, to read what advice people have to share, GOOD ADVICE at that and FREE.

I know there's no such thing as learning from other peoples mistakes, but at least it gives HOPE, that yup, it's true, LIFE GOES ON...even after all the heartbreak, tears, backstabbing, shit-talking, loss of trust, I'm hoping you get the point by now...so let me end with this...

keep on writing the words of your heart and mind, through your fingers onto the keyboard, and PUBLISHING it for the world to see.

...cause you INSPIRE me.

Family Portrait

2009-08-03T20:11:00.000-07:00

Trying to get a good picture with four kids is a hard enough task as it is...I think we got a pretty good one, well I don't like that I'm not smiling, but at least the kids are decent. :) So I'll take it.

words to live by.

2009-08-01T18:27:00.000-07:00

the best things come in small packages.

2009-07-31T06:56:00.000-07:00

Meet my godson Bailey a.k.a. BAILROC!

He's the little boy with BIG dreams! A passion for fashion and a love for DANCE, (just like me) heehee. :) Doing really big things right now showcasing his talent all over the United States. So proud of all his accomplishments and it isn't going to stop anytime soon. BAILROC is the GUZMAN's SHINING STAR!! We have one talented family I can tell you that much!

BAILROC in action at the ROCK STEADY 32nd anniversary NYC:

The crew he gets down with in LV "PRODIGY":

USA HIP HOP CHAMPIONSHIPS in Las Vegas:

BAILROC and SoREAL CRU

BAILROC w/Teresa of BEAT FREAKZ

So proud of you Bailey!! "CAN'T STOP WON'T STOP."I will leave you all with a video of the JABBAWOCKEEZ dance work shop in vegas. I'm sure you will know which one he is!! :)

the face behind the mask.

2009-07-31T06:35:00.000-07:00

Quick vent session, for my damn self!

I find it funny when I see pictures of a person or meet someone out at a club and think? damn, she is gorgeous!!Only to find out she was just really photogenic, or hiding behind a damn mask the whole time. Hey, sorry, but IF you look like a totally different person with the mask off, that isn't a good thing!

I'll be the first one to admit i love to wear make-up when i go out or on special occasions, but i feel that it should be to enhance beauty. I never never knew make-up could make ugly people look pretty. But i guess it does hold that kind of power!

what makes it funny to me is how these girls act like they are the freakin' ONE!! ONE OF A KIND, THE SHIT...Sorry for ya, cause you ain't! I'm all about being your #1 fan, but if you don't got it, you don't got it! hopefully you have that inner beauty to keep it movin'.

if you can't leave home without it, that can't be a good thing! i prefer to have mine on, but i am fine without it! Make up just gives me that up and up feeling...that "i feel pretty feeling". but i KNOW i am just the same without it!!

the end.

GO HARD or GO HOME

2009-07-29T23:26:00.000-07:00

"Go hard, today. Can't worry about the past cause that was yes-sterday. I'ma put it on tonight cause it's my time."

(this song gets me so hyped to do better...those words in particular. GET UP, GET OUT and GET SOME)

Wild Wild West

2009-07-29T22:22:00.000-07:00

So we finally had the chance to go to Bonnie Springs. This little Western Town type thing over by Red Rock, which was surprisingly a blast! We've had a very hard time finding "Family Friendly" activities to do out here in Vegas, so this was definitely a diamond in the ruff. They had a train ride, petting zoo and on going shows during the day.

We all really enjoyed it, THANK GOD it was cloudy with a light breeze because we managed to stay there from 10:30-3:00. I definitely recommend you go when it first opens at 10:30. It's a fee of $20 per car and everything else there is pretty much free. Minus the food and drinks of course. They even had horse back riding...or Pony rides for the younger ones. $55 for an hour ride and $7.50 on the pony.

...we also got an idea of what to put in our backyard! hahahaha

My heart will go on...

2009-07-29T22:18:00.001-07:00

We decided to check out the Titanic Artifact Exhibit at the Luxor a few weekends ago, and boy was it worth it! If you are ever in Vegas this next year, make time to see it. I am a huge fan of the movie, was a bit disappointed when I realized JACK and ROSE were only fictional characters though. :( Oh well...there were some really awesome parts in there, but i don't want to ruin it for anyone...just check it out.

Time and a half

2009-07-19T20:39:00.000-07:00

What a productive week for me...

-57 hrs on the job
-cooked dinner 4 out of 7 days of the week.
-folded 20 freakin' loads of laundry
-cleaned my closet
-went to the titanic artifact exhibition
-brought the kids to the pool
-brunch w/my moms,brother, significant others and kids.
-stopped by hooters for my favorite buffalo shrimp
-sang karaoke
-baked
-grocery shopping
-washed the cars

This is the kind of week I hope to have all the time. Sometimes we tend to have some really lazy weeks/days...and just want to lay and do nothing. But I think that's okay too, because you get burnt out and need to recharge your batteries. Being on the go 24/7 with 4 kids, I really am super mom! Wait, super freakin' woman!! Yup.

It feels good to finally be unpacked from all of our trips. We are home again. Traveling so much from LV to the BAY...I think we need to just chill at home for a while.

...What to do for my birthday, have no clue. Damn, 27? Shit...haven't really done anything that major since my 25th. (I'm usually pregnant on my birthdays.lol) But I'm thinking I want to finally try out a mechanical bull and possibly some type of pool party. If I can even be seen in a bathing suit.

Which reminds me, I haven't seen my aunt in a while and the 1st thing she says is..."Have you gained weight?" Wow, I like honesty but straight out the gate? No hi or cheek to cheek first?

And people wonder why I can be so insecure, especially when it comes to my body.

...Over and out!

For this month only!

2009-07-15T21:59:00.000-07:00

It's really nice having all the kids together. :) I love it! Family portraits? I hope we can get it done...greetings from VEGAS!

ALY's got TALENT

2009-07-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

Happy, singing "once upon a dream" by emily osment. Aly is one of those kids that bops her head, taps her foot, shakes her behind when there's music on. She will wrestle you to the ground when she sees a microphone, drum sticks, or a guitar in your possession. Stage fright? What's that? She likes to be the center of attention all the time! She demands it...I don't know who she gets it from.

You're a B-R-A-T.

2009-07-15T21:53:00.000-07:00

The picture speaks for itself. She didn't want to share the MAGIC of the MIC with anyone.

Too cute for words.

2009-07-02T16:16:00.000-07:00

My babies, old and new.

In the Night.

2009-06-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

So since so many people were in town last weekend and they all said they were going to XS at Encore on Saturday night. We decided to make a cameo! You know we hardly ever go out, but we felt like we deserved a night out, I KNOW I DID! Benny isn't really a "clubbing" kind of guy, but he knows I like to go to socialize with my friends, have a few drinks, and shake my tail feather! :) He's more of a gambling guy, but sometimes you gotta do something I wanna do!! lol Normally it sucks, because unless you are a group of girls in Vegas, you get stuck in the stupid VEGAS club lines!! Where you see all these people passing you up, because they have a table or they are a bunch of females. We live in vegas, so we don't do it hella major with bottle service every time we go out, or else we would be freakin' broke! So by the time we even get remotely close to the door Benny wants to go home. But i warned him before, that we are having fun tonight, so you better leave your attitude at home! hahahaha.

XS was pretty nice, it's like a bigger version of TRYST. The pool area was ridiculous and there were even black jack tables! Perfect for you girls with a man that needs to gamble! A little bit of both worlds! Unless you had a table, trying to get a drink at the bar took freakin' centuries! so that was definitely a negative, but please believe we didn't let that ruin our night!

We ended up staying out later than we planned to because we had so much fun. yup, can't wait for the next adult night out. Cause we just need it sometimes! :) My first drinking experience with Carlen, oh how I've missed her.

Happy 21st Birthday Rowena!! The "Union City" sure came out of me that night, bitches trying to fuck with me and my alcohol, aye they should know better!

Wrapped around my finger.

2009-06-30T05:57:00.000-07:00

There's no feeling that compares to when you have little tiny fingers wrapped around one of yours. Grasping on to you so tight, just wanting you to be there and guide them in the right direction.

I'm telling you, there has been no greater challenge I've witnessed that comes remotely close to raising a child. There is no greater reward to me than a smile on one of my children's faces. Some people are rich with money, but I'm filthy rich in other ways. And you know what...I wouldn't have it any other way.

The late and great...

2009-06-25T20:47:00.000-07:00

He didn't just make moves; he made history. His legend will live on through his music. We should all be grateful we got to witness his talent. RIP Michael Jackson at the age of 50.

"In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe."--MJ

speak on it.

2009-06-21T22:33:00.000-07:00

...thank you boss bizness...

If you're ever in Vegas...

2009-06-21T18:07:00.000-07:00

Go see the show "HUMAN NATURE" at Imperial Palace! I am so serious, I was dancing and singing to every song. They were so good...If you love Motown it's a must see! Benny and I were so impressed, we can't wait to watch it again. And the next time I go, I'm going all out dressed in Motown attire! I am so glad I got these show tickets for Benny for Father's Day, we had such a great time. We bought all 3 of their CD's and listened to them on the way home, but we still think they sounded 100 times better live! Our favorite part was probably when they sang their version of "Ooo Baby Baby", a remake of Smokey Robinson's original song, and man...they blew me away! I am a hardcore fan of theirs and that was the 1st time I saw them!

"The members of Human Nature are the first to admit that it’s a little strange to hear four white Australian guys singing Motown, but once they take the stage and start performing at the Imperial Palace, you’ll think these guys were born to sing the legendary songs made famous by artists like The Temptations and The Four Tops.

Smokey Robinson Presents Australia's Human Nature – The Ultimate Celebration of Motown features the vocal harmonies of Toby Allen, Phil Burton, Andrew Tierney and Michael Tierney.
In 2005 Human Nature recorded a tribute album to Motown called “Reach Out” and it caught Robinson’s attention. He invited the group to visit him at a recording session and they impressed him so much that he recorded some remakes for their album “Get Ready.” Robinson now introduces them via video screen six nights a week at the Imperial Palace.

The quartet, backed by a six-piece band, starts out with high-energy songs like “Baby I Need Your Lovin’” by The Four Tops and “The Way You Do the Things You Do” by The Temptations and the pace never slows from there.

Human Nature tries to channel the feeling and style of the Motown era in every way, even dressing impeccably in a variety of matching suits and tuxes throughout the show.

All good Motown groups had synchronized dance moves to go along with their songs and Human Nature is no exception. “Stop in the Name of Love” by The Supremes presents the perfect opportunity to teach some simple steps to the audience and everyone gets up out of their seats to participate. Audience participation does end there. Later in the show, the group chooses a woman in the audience to go on stage and sing along with Human Nature's on The Tempations’ “My Girl.”

The members of Human Nature interact well together on stage and their voices blend flawlessly. It’s evident that they’ve been together for a long time and have perfected their craft.
The group formed in 1989 as a doo-wop band in Sydney. In 1994 they signed with Sony Music and released their debut album “Telling Everybody” in 1995. The album was an instant hit, selling four times platinum and in the process becoming the most successful debut album ever released in Australia.

The group has performed as the opening act for Celine Dion and Michael Jackson and in 2000 they had the honor of performing the Australian National Anthem at the Sydney Olympics.
For a group that has spent years playing in huge stadiums, it’s a treat to see them in the intimate 653-seat theater at the Imperial Palace.

While every song Human Nature performs has the audience singing and clapping along, it’s the group’s a cappella songs that bring the house down. Their rendition of “People Get Ready” by The Impressions is stunning and the a cappella version of Smokey Robinson & The Miracles’ “Ooh Baby Baby” is what originally caught Robinson’s attention.

By the end of the show, the entire audience is on its feet and the performers are dancing in the aisles and even on table tops.

This show isn’t about fancy sets or special effects, it’s about the raw singing talent of Human Nature and the uplifting music of an era that will leave you nostalgic for the days of Motown."

Milestone.

2009-06-14T20:35:00.000-07:00

Congratulations to Kyle & AJ!!

YOU DID IT!! So happy and proud of you guys. I still can't believe you guys are done with High School, makes me feel ridiculously old. Love you guys!! Time to conquer the world...

DIE HARD.

2009-06-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

So I know guys are into sports, I happen to really like basketball and football. Those are the only two sports games I can really get into. Straight up off the couch, screaming, chanting actually knowing the game enough to know what calls are being made, etc. I'm sure you get the picture.

I'm a loyal fan to my teams and if my teams aren't playing I go for whatever team I like best. I'm a bay girl so obviously its the warriors and niners.

Right now, I'm rooting for orlando instead of LA, for this simple fact, I can't stand Kobe! And I feel like everyone is entitled to a championship, not just the lakers.

Yea, go for the team you want, but what's up with the side gallery of haters? Its a game people, you win some, you lose some. That's just the way the cookie crumbles. If my team loses, damn it sucks. But its there own fault they lost. They decide they're own fate. I'm just glad I got to witness a good game. Who wants to watch a boring one?

These ladies at my work were talking and said, "I don't know if its the teams I can't stand, or just the fans!"--referring to Laker & Raider fans.

Makes you wonder.

Be a fan, but be a good sport as well. Them die hard fans probably take the game waaaay more seriously than the players do! Where's the fun in that? After all, its just a game!

Born June 6, 2009

2009-06-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

Now introducing...
Kalia Raye Dejos. (aka Kali Raye)
7lbs, 8oz and 20" long

Congrats to the "born again" parental units Alvin & Jenn on the newest member to their growing family!! The favoritest people in my life are geminis, so her and I are going to be the best of friends!! Can't wait to meet her!

Damn. :(

2009-06-07T22:53:00.000-07:00

So I decided to watch the news tonight and the story about the 41 babies/toddlers killed in a daycare fire down in Mexico really hit me. I don't like watching the news because every time I do, its like it instills a little bit of fear in me, some worry, just a little bit of every unpleasant feeling there is! Why would you want to start your day off with hearing about the twin towers being demolished by planes or babies being found in dumpsters. Falling asleep to hearing about kids being kidnapped, shootings at schools. Fuck, enough to give you nightmares!

Even though I'm a mom that clearly has fears about what kind of things can happen to her kids, I'd rather avoid it by not watching the news, to confirm those fears! Don't get me wrong, we still live a grand life by living, but there's definitely nothing wrong with being overly cautious, or over protective!

As for me, I think educating your kids to be aware of the things that could happen is your best bet. Helping them understand that we set rules to be followed because there are "crazies" out there. Rules aren't there to make there lives hell, but to prevent any bad things from happening. We can only hope they follow them.

My heart goes out to anyone that was affected by the tragedy. Here's the link to the full article on ABC if you're interested. Reading it hurt my heart, I can only imagine what those parents are going through right now. :(

http://abcnews.go.com/International/wireStory?id=7775102

O God, whose beloved Son did take little children into his arms and bless them: Give us grace, we beseech thee, to entrust these children to thy never-failing care and love, and bring us all to thy heavenly kingdom; through the same thy Son Jesus Christ our Lord, who liveth and reigneth with thee and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.

the HANGOVER

2009-06-07T20:56:00.000-07:00

Looking at this picture just makes me laugh!

This movie was freakin' "awesome"!

Don't ask me why I use that word a lot, I just like it right now I suppose. But seriously, I haven't laughed so hard during a movie at a theatre in forever! And trust me, all the funny parts weren't already shown in the trailer, the entire thing was "laugh out loud" funny! There was probably a total of 5 minutes through out the entire thing that I was NOT laughing. It's like my asthma started kicking in because I wasn't breathing right.

Alan was definitely my favorite character, even though they all pretty much had there time to shine, the cast complimented each other very well. I can't wait for this movie to come out on DVD, because I can totally see myself watching it over and over again! It will be definite laughs...

Shit, I might just watch it again in the theatre!! But definitely too graphic for kids, so don't bring them! Don't ever watch it with them around.! For sure, adult ONLY film. So save it for when your kids are asleep or sleeping over the grandparents house.

There are those "stupid funny" films like Pineapple express, Dude where's my car..etc. Where it's funny, but its like "who does that?". Like you know, the straight stoner movies. I'm not even sure if I'm going to make sense saying this, but this movie, was "stupid funny", but so realistic at the same time. Like it could really happen to people, especially in VEGAS!! Just go watch it, you'll see what the hype is about.

I know I was hearing people weren't as excited about it and didn't like it, but I can't see how you WOULD NOT like it. I was going through the reviews and out of all the good ones, there was one bad review.

"DON'T BELIEVE THE HYPE-OK
by Hannah Palindrome

Hannah Palindrome
I had high hopes for this movie after reading all the reviews. Am I just a boring person with absolutely no "funny bone."The best parts of the movie: Mike Tyson & Phil Collins, The Asian guy rolling up the window scene, The guy yelling at his girlfriend, and the end with all the photos. The rest of the movie was...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzThe guy sitting next to me was laughing at everything. I don't know what he was "smoking", but it was really not that funny. I guess it will tickle your funny bone if your a teen or in your twenties. I'm in my early thirties. BORINGIf you want to see a funny/good movie...rent The Wackness! Ben Kingsley is GREAT!"

Okay really lady?? I think she pretty much bagged herself in this review, saying she has no funny bone, and that she's 30. So what if your 30?? You have no sense of humor or desire to laugh? That was the only bad review I found and that even made me laugh!

Favorite Quotes from the movie:

"Remember what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas. Except for herpes. That s***'ll come back with you."

Stu: "She is wearing my grandmother's Holocaust ring."Alan: "I didn't know they gave out rings at the Holocaust."

Stu: "Why can't we remember a godd*** thing from last night?"Phil: "Because we obviously had a great f***ing time."

Dr. Valsh (Matt Walsh): "It's on the corner of 'get a map' and 'f*** off.'"

Alan: "Next week's no good for me. The Jonas Brothers are in town."

Alan: "Tigers love pepper. They hate cinnamon."

I don't want to burn too much of the movie, so I won't get carried away with the quotes, just go watch it!

His 1 before 3O.

2009-06-07T19:16:00.000-07:00

So today marks Benny's 29th birthday! Craaazy. Happy birthday oldie! (But goodie) :)

cute "do" of the day, Aly saying: "its not daddys birthday, its alys birthday!"

Back in the day...

2009-06-05T02:39:00.000-07:00

"...when I was young I'm not a kid anymore, but some days I sit and wish I was a kid again."

I really don't recall life EVER being so complicated when I was a kid. Now there's so much responsibility it makes my head spin, but I guess that's what happens when you have as many kids as I do, a full time job and a relationship.

Just for kicks I'm taking a trip down memory lane:

I'm not so sure I want to be a kid again, but I want to take myself back to a place where I feel like a kid again! Sometimes I do, when I let myself go and just forget about the stresses of life. Just because we have responsibilities doesn't mean we can't have fun. Just remember to set aside "me time" to let loose!

"Don't worry, be happy!"

Remember to smile today, you never know who's day that smile may brighten! (super cheesy I know)

a better half

2009-06-04T20:25:00.001-07:00

Only in my dreams can I experience what I deserve. For now anyways.

Why do people feel like they can say outrageous things to you in the line of anger, then expect you to forget it once they finally run it back in their head. Once they see the "cruelness" spoken off their tongue.

You can only take so much of the same thing before you start to think, "why am I here again?"

Dear god...where is my better half? One that can embrace differences and put selfishness aside. A support system I can turn to whenever I need it. I won't go out and look, because I know with patience and the love I have for myself.

...My better half will come my way when I least expect it.

I promise you this. Each day I will say I love you
- regardless of how sad, disappointed or angry I become.
Each day I will commit to you as if for the first time.
An each day I will be thankful that you are with me.
Each day I will remember how imperfect I am.

yummy in the tummy.

2009-06-03T21:33:00.001-07:00

So I tried a new food creation:

-Cilantro
-lemon
-lettuce
-hummus

Sandwich. It was delicious!! The flavors complimented each other so well, so definitely try it! I'll take a picture next time I make it, I took a bite to taste it and couldn't stop. :9

Lei maker.

2009-06-03T18:44:00.000-07:00

So those of you that know me, know that I learn fast and just heart doing anything crafty/artsy. For papa's memorial (CELEBRATION OF LIFE) we had to make lei's, I really didn't think I was going to do it, but instead of being scared like (you know I tend to be sometimes). I had the "can't hurt to try" attitude.

In the past, I missed out on a lot of things, because I was too scared to try out or not get picked for this or that. But as I got older, I've learned to just do things, because you can't come to your own conclusions that are normally driven by fear, but to just do it, to know you did it!! If you're good at it great, if not, then even better! but hey, at least you get to say you've tried it before. Kind of like food, you won't know what it tastes like until you stuff it in your mouth and let your taste buds decide for themselves.

Well...I was assigned to the lei committee, and after de-boning all the tea leaves and ironing them, it was time to make some.

yup, Filipino toe lock is the only way to go! :)

by the end, I was the last one standing! I made most of the leis and had a fun time doing it!! Maybe I should do this on the side, graduations are coming up!! hahahaha

I also conquered another fear, singing in public, yup, sang at the Memorial "The Prayer"-by Ho'okena. Now I can't seem to stop. So who cares if I hid behind a bouquet of flowers and talked Morella into singing with me? at least I did it!

And who knows, I may be able to do it alone next time!

Cry me a river.

2009-06-03T18:36:00.001-07:00

Don't you hate when you haven't talked to someone in a while and then all of a sudden out of nowhere you hear from them?? You're hearing from them because they need something?? That just makes my blood boil under my skin. Why? Because 1st of all, I should be the last person this fool would even think to call for help, because we only have one think to speak on, and that's our son. All the other shit, you're trying to put on me, is NOT my problem.! I feel bad, because I'm only human, but your problems are not mine! Don't you think I have enough on my plate as it is?? Maybe if you were a trustworthy person I would consider helping just because I'm nice like that, and don't like seeing people run a muck, but you ain't, so that's all I have to say about that.

...be a man, handle your shit!

...the ones that CRY WOLF.

2009-06-03T18:14:00.000-07:00

So I've finally returned from a tough 2 weeks in the bay. It was a very emotional trip, but also a very memorable one. But I've come back to training for a new job, an over flowing mail box, and a rough time adjusting back to reality!

Last night something was brought to my attention and I thought I would speak on it today, since its obviously been bothering me since it was brought up.

Why are woman blinded by a man?

I mean I've heard of love making you do crazy things, but love should not make your world go 'round! You should be that driving force in your own life to make things shine, make it worth living. For you first, before anyone else. I know in a previous post I stated how you need to love yourself, before someone else can. And it's the truth people! If you think your world revolves around a man, I think its about time you re-evaluate.

1st of all you shouldn't be burning bridges with people that love, care and are genuinely trying to help you. And for what? A man, that claims he loves you, but doesn't show it. If you think that sometimes a man just can't express himself, you are full of it, because if a man loves you, you'll know it! You don't need to play mind reader and assume deep down he loves you, even though on the outside he treats you like shit! It really ticks me off to think that you are willing to lie to people that are you blood, to get something that really don't mean shit! How are you going to say that you need money for this, but then you're going off trying to make things happen with a guy, that its obviously not working out with!! Like i said, I can't stand liars. People who cry wolf are the fucking worst! At least be honest, stop trying to paint a picture that isn't even close to the truth.

2nd of all, how do you expect to get a job if you're all over the place every weekend, chasing men, and trying to keep up with a crowd, you obviously can't hang with right now, because you're still trying to get yourself settled. You have to make money before you can spend it. It's pretty fucked up that you are leaching off other people, for things of ZERO importance!! Not even needs, but wants.

3rd of all, please stop trying to play the victim card. That shit is just cold, like nobody is trying to help you get back on your feet, and you're in this shit alone. Okay, you don't have money for food?? but you have money to go to LA every weekend or buy a new LV purse?? I don't care if you're blood or not, that is some shady, grimey, shit, and I don't need to associate myself with a manipulative liar such as yourself. so suck my fat toe, go to therapy, you need serious help.

I hate when you try to give advice to people, and they just brush it off. You want to help them, but they don't want to help themselves. Oh well, I've done my part and I'm done with it.

...get your shit together, or get out!

Rest & RELAXation

2009-05-21T17:36:00.000-07:00

We will be at Lake Don Pedro for this long weekend for some much needed "fun in the sun". Please believe I'll be 20 shades darker after being out on the houseboat for 5 straight days!! Hopefully you will be able to recognize me when I return, and if there's signal I may just blog the happenings of our long weekend.

...Because the family needs time to remember.

R.I.P. Papa "Felix Oliva". You will be missed!!

Not a day goes by...

2009-05-19T14:24:00.000-07:00

That I don't think about my grandparents, Purita & Guillermo Guzman, you are missed every single day.! I really envy people who still have their grandparents around now,consider yourselves lucky and incredibly blessed! I lost my grandma at the age of 6 to a stroke and my Grandpa at the age of 16. He had a stroke as well a few years prior and ended up paralyzed on his entire left side. I was there with him everyday of his recovery as he fought to walk again. He never fully recovered and passed away while he was in the Philippines after viewing my performance on live tv at the Macys's Thanksgiving day parade! That was a tough loss for me, since I was so close to my grandpa. But I thank them both everyday for the huge family that surrounds me today. They had 12 kids,could you even imagine?! I won't even get into how many grandchildren and great grandchildren came from that "dirty doezen". I'm just grateful we all remain extremely close, no matter how much drama or craziness that seems to follow us at all times, "Guzmans make the world go round". And if only I could afford it, I would go for 12 too!! :) love you guys!! Until we meet again...

For PAPA F.OLIVA

2009-05-18T20:23:00.000-07:00

May we discover through pain and torment,
the strength to live with grace and humor.
May we discover through doubt and anguish,
the strength to live with dignity and holiness.
May we discover through suffering and fear,
the strength to move toward healing.
May it come to pass that we be restored to health and to vigor.
May Life grant us wellness of body, spirit, and mind.
And if this cannot be so, may we find in this transformation and passage
moments of meaning, opportunities for love
and the deep and gracious calm that comes
when we allow ourselves to move on.

- Rabbi Rami M. Shapiro

You are in my thoughts and prayers, we will be ther soon!

GET LIFTED.

2009-05-17T10:52:00.000-07:00

I am recommending these movies NOT because they have the best special effects or acting, but because of the message I got after watching them. I've never felt so hopeful or uplifted after any other two movies before.

I was either crying my eyes out or had the wheels turning inside my head trying to come up with ways to incorporate the things I learned into my life. Like watching these movies made me a better person, they brought me closer to god for the simple fact, that GOD is GOOD in even the toughest times. You just have to make sure he is a constant presence in your life.

FIREPROOF

When I first started watching the movie the acting was pretty bad and corny, like the kind of acting in a porno! Seriously, I was thinking about changing the channel, but started really getting into the whole story, I guess because part of me could relate to it. I'm so glad I left it on, because I learned sooo much from this movie. When it gets tough, you can't just give up. Every relationship requires work, in hard times even more than easy ones.

My favorite quote: "The sad part about it is, when most people promise for better or for worse, they really only mean for the better."

NOT EASILY BROKEN

If we believe the movies, the tough part of relationships is getting to the "I dos." Everything after that is some vaguely imagined "happily ever after." But "Not Easily Broken," based on the popular novel by preacher T.D. Jakes, is frank from its very first moments that "happily ever after" requires a lot of work and a lot of prayer.

This movie had me from the get because I love MORRIS CHESTNUT! :) I got a little annoyed at some parts, when you watch it you'll know why. But I laughed a lot and I was definitely crying more! So emo nemo. yes, that would be.

My Favorite Quote: "You've got to let life turn you upside down so you can learn how to live right side up"

**Definitely take time out to watch these 2 flicks, you won't regret it. **

You gotta love yourself first.

2009-05-16T11:29:00.000-07:00

- because in the end - you will be all you have.

Men will love you for it, because in reality, they just share that love with you - sounds paradoxical - but when you sit and figure out how to explain this - that's the only time you will know - put yourself as number one for a while. Once they figure out that you still have yourself to love you, that's when they feel the insecurity - remember, A man loves a strong woman, fears a weak woman, and plays with a stupid woman.

There's only really 3 kinds of us in their heads - be the first of the three! Nothing is guaranteed - only your love of yourself is.

"UNDERWORLD"-Rise of the Lycans

2009-05-14T21:13:00.001-07:00

So I guess the rivalry between werewolves and vampires stretches waaay beyond just "Twilight".

I found this movie to have a little bit of everything, so if you find yourself at a RED BOX, make sure you pick this one up. I've never really been into scary/action movies until I men Benny. Movies I wouldn't normally even think about watching, I have been. And I must admit, I find them rather enjoyable!! :)

4...3...2...1

2009-05-14T21:05:00.000-07:00

So I'm on day 2 of my 4 day week...(final week at current job)

just 2 more days to go and I will be outta there!

I don't know why, but I'm really starting to feel the nerves (the good kind). You know like the night before your birthday, the first day of school or performance in front of hundreds of people. Those kind of nerves. The "I think I want to puke" butterflies in your stomach kind of nerves. I think you guys get the picture.

When one chapter closes another one starts, so let's see what kind of adventure I can find myself in this time.

I've never been one to fear change...

**Cheers to new beginnings!**

We honor you today, Happy Mother’s day!

2009-05-13T17:18:00.000-07:00

Toys are scattered, Laundry Never ends, you’ve wrecked the house, it’s tiring.

Yet here I am, I never tire of watching your little face as you sleep, so peaceful, your eyes wander, your fingers twitch, your leg moves, are you running in your dreams? Are you playing in the ocean or walking across green pastures? I wonder how is it that I can be so tired, so confused, sometimes it even hurts, but still I feel breathless over you.

I’m scared but courageous; torn but resolute.

It’s terrifying because your heart, your hopes, your dreams, they’re all on the line, and I’m responsible. Yet I have so much strength in me, I have love for you given to me by god, and it makes me stronger than anything you can imagine. You have no idea, because of you I don’t get to rest. Not when I’m sick, not when I’m tired. But you are worth every mess you are worth every sleepless night. Every ache, every tear because you are the reason I laugh, you are the reason my heart soars with the light, you are the reason I possess this love. You give me so much life. And you know what, before I was called mother, I never knew such bliss.

**Thank you mothers you are a beautiful snapshot of God’s perfect love. Longing to comfort, protect, nurture, and gather your children into your arms.

For the hand that rocks the cradle - Is the hand that rules the world

2009-05-09T15:43:00.001-07:00

Mother's day is one on my favorite Holidays of the year. Just because being a mother is such a big part of my life, it's nice to have a day dedicated to me! Well...to me and all the other wonderful mothers out there. We all know it isn't easy, it's a lot of hard work! We make the world go round!! I hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow, because we all deserve it!!

Keep up the good work!

what goes around comes around.

2009-05-07T21:46:00.000-07:00

I'm a firm believer in KARMA!

yup, do unto others as you would have done unto you, or be ready for some major payback! It doesn't even mean it will come back in the exact same form of your dirt, but you will definitely get yours.

I try to live a very honest life for the following reasons:

1. I'm a really bad liar and honestly DON'T like doing it.
2. I don't have the stomach to have a "guilty cloud" hovering over my heart, mind & soul everyday. Who can live like that?
3. I love the people in my life, why would I ever want to do anything to hurt them?

I've witnessed a whole lot of dirt in my life, sometimes I wonder how?? why?? wth?? But it isn't my place to say anything, or maybe it is, but we're talking about lives here!! Not my life, so why would I want to be the one to spill the beans. It wasn't even me, but just knowing and not saying anything makes me feel guilty. Why do grimey messed up things happen to the nicest people?? It sucks! And how can the person doing the dirt act like they didn't do anything at all?? Continuing the normal routine...so many questions...

In no way, shape, or form am I claiming to be perfect! I just know I always try to be very upfront and honest about my decisions and things I do, so that it doesn't come and bite me in the ass later, it's as simple as that.

ALCARAZ+ISLA=

2009-05-06T23:03:00.001-07:00

MAJOR "ROCK OUT" Finger suckers!

Catchin' Cases!

2009-05-06T22:41:00.000-07:00

I just got done watching "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button". I definitely give it 2 thumbs up!

I know, I know, I'm always super late to watch movies, but with 3 kids at home, its a bit hard to get out. So most of the time we pick it up as soon as it comes out on DVD.

If you aren't up on "RED BOX"--google it. Waaaay cheaper than BLOCKBUSTER or even NETFLIX. (Depending on how often you get a movie. ) We probably rent an average of 12 DvD's a month and for $1.08 rental charge (including tax), I say that's one hell of a deal! They have kiosks located at most grocery stores and even some gas stations, so it isn't really out of the way, just pick-up a movie on your way out from stocking up your fridge or while you're pumping your gas.

I didn't really realize how long this movie was, but I was determined to finish it in one sitting, even with 3 kids crying, yelling & screaming in the background, I did my best to enjoy the movie. :)

There were so many inspiring quotes in this movie, but if I had to pick one:

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. "

Can't stop won't stop!

It's never too late people, to be what you "might have" been!!

Pacman vs. Hitman

2009-05-05T20:07:00.000-07:00

Seriously? 2 rounds? I was hoping for a much better fight than that! At least 5 rounds, geeez. Either way the outcome would have been the same! Go MANNY!! I have never screamed sooo much for 2 rounds of boxing in my life! I guess it doesn't help that there were 2 visitors at the viewing, that were rooting for the other team! All I can say now is..."There's only ooooone Manny Pacquiao..." I guess you had to be there to know the rest of the chant!

...and that's what happens when you talk too much shit.

**VICTORY**!!

Show me the $$$

2009-05-05T00:28:00.000-07:00

So I have 2 more weeks before I start my new position at Wells Fargo!

I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I know it's a better move in the long run since there will be more room for me to grow at this particular location, but now that I'm starting to think about what I'll be giving up...all I can say is "DAMN"! No more 4 day work weeks (even if the hours were pretty long!). It was sooo nice to have 3 days off! The last time I had M-F 8-5 was in California 5 years ago!! I can't put myself to sleep because all of these luxuries the previous locations offered to me, will no longer be there!

I guess we all have to sacrifice something for something else. And no matter how green it looks on the other side, you just never really know until you get there! Which reminds me, I need to put some relief in play. Benny is not going to be able to handle staying up 5 days a week and working nights, all by himself. what to do...what to do...

"Next Buy"

2009-05-04T17:25:00.000-07:00

So Benny is trying to talk me into getting this tiny little laptop, for when we're just sitting in bed, traveling, or web chatting. I guess it would be a wise investment, but for a few hundred more we could get a REAL laptop, not just a "mini" one. I would definitely keep up with this blog more if I had one, because blogging from my phone, isn't really my thing.

...and another year passes.

2009-05-04T16:58:00.000-07:00

So Isaiah's Birthday passed on April 25th, and since I'm really bad at this whole blogging thing, I thought I would post a couple pictures from the day. We had his party at "Make Me a Star"--Party studios, which was a blast!! I wish I had the money to open a children's party studio, that's seriously what I want to do!! Someday...

*The Red Carpet Interview

*Playing the part

*Record the Demo --"The Cool Kids"

*Photoshoot for demo cover

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY IJ!

TwitterBerry

2009-03-03T20:56:00.003-08:00

I am addicted!

the end.

Double the FUN!

2009-02-27T10:02:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the world

Amie Katharine-Grace & Aidan Angelo Antonio.

Congratulations to Gail & Alfie!

I'm not gonna lie, I was secretly wishing for twins this last pregnancy. When I found out my cousin was having twins a few months after me, I was definitely feeling a little speck of jealousy! :x At least I'll get to have those two in my life to satisfy my "twin" fascination. Could you imagine? I'm pretty sure its a lot harder than it looks, but I still think it would have been great! :) Don't we look good holding two?? **sigh**Maybe next time. (sike!) I guess you could say that we have our hands full with 4 already, but the older two, aren't babies anymore, so they don't really count! hahaha Maybe we should start thinking about how we're going to get them all through college now! Let's just hope we make it through High School, because if they're anything like WE used to be, we're in for one hell of a ride!

OUT with the OLD, IN with the NEW

2009-02-26T19:25:00.000-08:00

So word on the streets is this is where the "grown folks" are meant to blog now a days. I guess we've all grown out of myspace and xanga and have now turned to facebook and blogspot. I have even surrendered my sidekick for a blackberry. Wow, we are growing up! hahaha

I've always been a person that wasn't afraid of change. :) I guess we shall see if I'm even able to keep up with this, since my growing family just keeps on growing!

So stay tuned...