2nd grade

So another school year has officially begun. :( I don't think it ever gets any easier, in fact, it gets harder. The older they get the sadder I get, waterworks are more than just puddles and rivers they're lakes and oceans. As much as I'm glad to see him become independent, I'm a mom, I want him to need me and want me to do things for him and with him. Now a days he acts like he knows everything and can do it all on his own...he really does know a lot, but damn, that's still my baby!!

bills, bills, bills

I feel like I am drowning in bills…can you pay my bills?

The direct deposit hasn’t even hit my bank account yet and the money from this paycheck is already gone. I’m really tired of working 45 hours a week to be broke. This grown-up stuff is hard, I’m hoping I can figure it out soon, because as much as I feel like I’m taking care of business. I don’t want to just be able to survive off my money, I want to be able to enjoy it. This is where some kind of budgeting would come into play, but I am not very good at that kind of thing. I will always find a reason to need to buy a new outfit or that thing I just had to have right then and there. I guess it isn’t very good that the partner and I are the same when it comes to that, because that means we are NO good at saving…He’s probably better at it than me, but we are very compulsive buyers, when we get something in our head that we want, we have to get it.

Could it be that we are both the babies of our families? I think so…always used to getting what we want.

Why can’t money just grow on trees?

Cruel Summer.

I had fun this summer, but I am a little disappointed I wasn’t able to go on any BIG VACATION GETAWAYS like we originally had planned at the beginning of it. Where did the summer go?? I guess it’s flashing before my eyes like the rest of my life.

So Isaiah asked me to start an e-mail account for him, my 7 yr old was chatting with me on google talk today. *tear* He starts 2nd grade on Monday too…

when it rains it pours I guess.

EFF u MONDAYS.

I literally am NOT a fan of MONDAYS. Why can’t we all just have 3 day weekends, I seriously have the hardest time waking up on Monday mornings because I’m always in shock as to how fast my weekend went by. I swear we would all be a lot happier if we had 3 day weekends every week, because there is nothing like remembering, “wait I have another day off”. It just comes as a shock to you every time. I was able to do a lot of errands/chores as well as get some well needed rest back when I had to work only 4 days a week. I miss you 4 10’s…I think I want you back. Well actually, I want you back!!

…So exhausted without you.

C.TATUM.

The highlight of my day...:) Too bad I'm not the lucky girl who got the lapdance! jk

It's a small world after all.

When you’re young the world seems so big, you go to your 1st day of pre-school and nobody knows who you are. So you try your best to make some friends. By the end of High School the world just seems to be a little smaller, especially if you’ve lived in the same city your whole life. Now that we’re adults and you meet friends through friends and family, the world seems to be even SMALLER. Now you’re at the point where every group is interacting with a person from another group and every club is just a bunch of people you used to hate in high school or have some kind of funk with at some point in your life. So can it be that our adolescent years were just really growing pains? Where you would hate on a girl just because your BFF didn’t like her…or put people on blast because back then, you really had nothing to lose.

Now that we’re older it’s all about responsibility, kids, love and LOVING LIFE. I guess we all learned to just not care about the petty things.

CHEERS TO GROWING PAINS. We’re a lot smarter now…:)

workhouse blues.

Well while most people work 8 hr shifts, I’m stuck working 9. I don’t know what’s worse FOUR 10 hr days or FIVE 9 hr days. Lately, this job has just been majorly boring, like I am wasting my time being here scrounging for things to do. Work shouldn’t be like this, they should be able to keep you occupied the entire duration of the 9 hours they want you to be here. Because lord knows I am the type of worker that would rather have too much to do rather than not enough to do, because that’s what determines whether your day will fly by or go in slow motion.

Like today, I was looking up at the clock only to find 2 minutes have passed when it felt like hours. So if you got time to kill hit me at the “workhouse”, I’ll find something to occupy time if they can’t.

…:)

T-minus 27 minutes!

You learn.

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean security
and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises

you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open, with
the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn to build your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight

after a while you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so, you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone else to bring you flowers
and you learn you really can endure
that you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn and you learn
with every good-bye you learn.

cause I've got Love for me.

​"You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self... Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose." - Jo Courdet

break-up

This is my jam right now...the song just got that something!

"lovin' you lovin' you lovin' you...when i'm, when i'm lovin'you lovin' you, why would you wanna break up? Do anything for you why would you wanna break up?"

Now imagine me just rippin' that shit in the car! yee!

Leo's stand up!

Since our season is in full swing I thought it would be nice to post up our 2009 horoscope, I found it to be quite interesting. HAPPY BORN DAY to my fellow LEOS!

In 2009, you find yourself connecting with people effortlessly as your warm-hearted actions are acknowledged and radiated back to you in a way you've never experienced before. The confident joy and happiness you freely give to others gives you the innate ability to be productive. For you, kind actions are the way to transformation and success.

This is a perfect time for proud Leo, because you have the desire, drive and power to help society. You realize there?s work to do, and you'll give a helping hand wherever you can. You are ready to align yourself with a higher level of awareness, and exhibit a regenerative attitude is about reaping the harvest by submitting to the larger purpose. What you are able to give to others directly reflects the transformation happening within you.

Your heart is in the right place, and you are likely to accomplish all that you set out to do this year. You're developing excellent skills in your own personal transformation process, and you are ready to make the conscious decision to be the best you can be. You feel secure, and the beauty of who you are shines through easily and effortlessly.

This is Me.

Free as the wind that blows through the trees,
Active as the buzzing of the energetic bees,
Wild as the flowers that grow in the field,
But as calm as the deep blue sea

My smile is extra bright,
And the love I give is just right,
I'm so happy about my life,
That my soul just shines,
Even when life begins to taste like a sour lime,

I'm not your average young lady,
Jewels, diamonds, and pearls are things I don't need,
To love, respect and honor is my creed,
So I'll always keep it real,

I am what I am
Young, Bold and Be-you-ti-full,
I do the best I can,
I will never change because I know me just being, is enough,
I can only be me and that's all I will ever strive to be

(Such a silly willy. Wow, 4th blog of the night, I think its time for bed! Sweet dreams!)

Lead by EXAMPLE.

Some people really need to lead with their actions and not just their words.

I see this all the time, the "mom" at the club that gets so drunk she doesn't realize all the sick fucks groping on her ass, then passes out in a room full of strangers just to have her ass BBM'ed to their friends with in seconds or twitpic'ed on twitter. SHAME ON YOU. Yes, mommy's need a break too, I am a firm believer in that, but I really can't stand people that can't hold their own, ESPECIALLY in public. If you're at your homies house and feel like being a hot mess, go for it!

Lord knows I have...

Cause yup, I'm the girl that will probably drink too much, throw up in the bathroom, drink a glass of water and take another shot of henn. CHEERS to the mutha fuckin' GOOD LIFE.

I'm just saying...

or am i wrong?? maybe it's just me...

but you aren't that single kid in college anymore, with nothing to worry about. You have kids depending on you and if you get kidnapped, raped and murdered while you decide to play "freak in the streets" that would just be tragic. At least have a cool group of friends around you that are gonna watch your back if you decide to get all sloppy. It still ain't a good look though ladies, it's true what they say...

..."you can't make a hoe a housewife." or can you??

super touchy subject, where all my CLASSY BITCHES at?!

"Back in the Day"

I find myself singing this more and more as I get older. *sigh*

conspire to INSPIRE.

I get so inspired reading blogs, my goodness, sometimes I feel like I'm not putting in my share of good reads. But thank you to the people that keep me coming back for more. There's nothing like it when you are stuck at the Dr's office, on your break at work or killing some time before bed while you have some silence after the kids have fallen asleep, to read what advice people have to share, GOOD ADVICE at that and FREE.

I know there's no such thing as learning from other peoples mistakes, but at least it gives HOPE, that yup, it's true, LIFE GOES ON...even after all the heartbreak, tears, backstabbing, shit-talking, loss of trust, I'm hoping you get the point by now...so let me end with this...

keep on writing the words of your heart and mind, through your fingers onto the keyboard, and PUBLISHING it for the world to see.

...cause you INSPIRE me.

Family Portrait

Trying to get a good picture with four kids is a hard enough task as it is...I think we got a pretty good one, well I don't like that I'm not smiling, but at least the kids are decent. :) So I'll take it.

words to live by.